This is My New Process!

"2 Positive thoughts

to every 1 Negative thought"

Discouraged!

Well here it is Monday again. Today I woke up feeling very lost. I have been looking for a job since I found out that I am loosing this one, and the prospects are not good. I live in a little town that has about 6,000 people in total, and there is not many jobs here. I dont want to have to travel to a bigger city, because it will be about 45 minutes to an hour drive, to work. That will mean that we will have to move closer to my work, and the rentals there are very expensive. The rents here have gone up quite expensive as well. As you know we are living with my brother in law in his house, and even though he is never here it isnt the same as being in your own house. Our stuff is in storage and we are using his stuff, except for our bed and dressers. I am finding it very difficult to get my mind on work, because of not being sure of my future. Well it doesnt help that I have been treated like I have the plague here. I dont even want to be here anymore. Maybe I am depressed again. My mother just makes me feel worse, than I am, by bringing up "the what ifs", I can do that myself. Or reminding me how we got to the situation that we are in, and then I question my decisions again. I guess that is what moms are supposed to do. .............CHOW